It almost 1 in the night and I wonder why am I awake till now. Today was a usually normal day with no such pressure to keep me awake till 1 in night and drive me to blog!
There are three things bugging me right now (in the order of their sequence):
1. I saw a few people (of my age) posting their outing pics with hot friends in hot destinations. For me the missing part was the hot friends. I never had that much time to devote to these hotties. Here comes the question that even those guys have 24 hours in day, so how do they manage. So here I've another line of thought - My technical field doesn't have these hotties and so I don't get that kind of exposure. Hmm, this seems to be more rational. But then, I could also have made it in those companies (read non-tech)? Well, I can work there as well, but I lover my technical core engineering *more* than that. This leads me to another question:
2. Right now, I'm getting paid well and comparable to what a good graduate from top B-skools in India would expect. Rather, I've been making it from the day he would have entered the B'skool. Cool! So where's the tension? The thing is that this scenario is good for today and I'm sure that I can make it stay as it is forever also, but that would require answering the third and the most fundamental question. Right now, to third person my qualifications seem to be little infront of some one who has IIM-A tag with some CFA certifications. Even I' m sometimes attracted by these numbers of Qualifications. On top of that, I've my friends telling me that what are the kind of remunerations one could get by working in Investment Banking/ PE/ Portfolio Management. What I'm being paid right now is the best what I could expect at my level. Although there is lot to learn and I'm doing my best (read the best possible in absolute terms), I don't know how much benefit would it give me in terms of monetary returns. While other s and I, both are adding to their knowledge, the difference is that their number of degrees are also increasing while I'm still a B.E. So I love what I do and I exceed at that, but is the correct thing to do if for-god-sake tomorrow others with more degrees are getting higher salaries than me? So this leads me to the basic and fundamental question on which I began to ponder when I was just 8 years old. At age of 8, money and materialistic values don't have any such importance. But since I'd these questions in my mind really early, I later built a very holistic and intellectual thinking procedure transcending these monetary equations.
3. So the third and the most difficult question is what I think is the real QUEST for life
- What is that I'm supposed to do in a lifetime given to me? Contributing to others is what seems most logical to me, but who can assert it?
- What is the meaning of life to me ? There are somethings I'm good while somethings at which I'm not. So how did I decided which hobbies to adopt?
- Why is it that only certain people interact with me?
- How can I know what is good and what is not? What I perceive to be good may not be good in absolute terms.
- Our actions are important but how? If we work hard, we achieve what we need, but is that thing really we require?
- Do we know what we need?
Just a few of these questions.. The QUEST has many more abstract questions. One thing I've understood in these years is that - to find a solution, you must clearly define the question. So still many more questions need to be framed. And them they need to be answered. Is a lifetime enough for answering these?
-Ashish
There are three things bugging me right now (in the order of their sequence):
1. I saw a few people (of my age) posting their outing pics with hot friends in hot destinations. For me the missing part was the hot friends. I never had that much time to devote to these hotties. Here comes the question that even those guys have 24 hours in day, so how do they manage. So here I've another line of thought - My technical field doesn't have these hotties and so I don't get that kind of exposure. Hmm, this seems to be more rational. But then, I could also have made it in those companies (read non-tech)? Well, I can work there as well, but I lover my technical core engineering *more* than that. This leads me to another question:
2. Right now, I'm getting paid well and comparable to what a good graduate from top B-skools in India would expect. Rather, I've been making it from the day he would have entered the B'skool. Cool! So where's the tension? The thing is that this scenario is good for today and I'm sure that I can make it stay as it is forever also, but that would require answering the third and the most fundamental question. Right now, to third person my qualifications seem to be little infront of some one who has IIM-A tag with some CFA certifications. Even I' m sometimes attracted by these numbers of Qualifications. On top of that, I've my friends telling me that what are the kind of remunerations one could get by working in Investment Banking/ PE/ Portfolio Management. What I'm being paid right now is the best what I could expect at my level. Although there is lot to learn and I'm doing my best (read the best possible in absolute terms), I don't know how much benefit would it give me in terms of monetary returns. While other s and I, both are adding to their knowledge, the difference is that their number of degrees are also increasing while I'm still a B.E. So I love what I do and I exceed at that, but is the correct thing to do if for-god-sake tomorrow others with more degrees are getting higher salaries than me? So this leads me to the basic and fundamental question on which I began to ponder when I was just 8 years old. At age of 8, money and materialistic values don't have any such importance. But since I'd these questions in my mind really early, I later built a very holistic and intellectual thinking procedure transcending these monetary equations.
3. So the third and the most difficult question is what I think is the real QUEST for life
- What is that I'm supposed to do in a lifetime given to me? Contributing to others is what seems most logical to me, but who can assert it?
- What is the meaning of life to me ? There are somethings I'm good while somethings at which I'm not. So how did I decided which hobbies to adopt?
- Why is it that only certain people interact with me?
- How can I know what is good and what is not? What I perceive to be good may not be good in absolute terms.
- Our actions are important but how? If we work hard, we achieve what we need, but is that thing really we require?
- Do we know what we need?
Just a few of these questions.. The QUEST has many more abstract questions. One thing I've understood in these years is that - to find a solution, you must clearly define the question. So still many more questions need to be framed. And them they need to be answered. Is a lifetime enough for answering these?
-Ashish
